for those special 2 ;)

I dont really know what to write about.... 

first of all id like to say sorry to laura and little bec,

who probably think this will be about them.

well i was lying guys its not.

there isnt much to write about,

another boring weekend coming up.

another day full of school tommorow,

oh i went to the dentist yesterday said i needed one filling,

and they recommended i go see a orthodontist because apparently i have 2 teeth growing in the middle of mouth.

and the dentist said it was really weird.

also im thinking i might go to william anglis institute of tafe and study commercial cookery

and either patteserie(pastry chef) or confectionary(lollies) =).

im not quite sure which one yet but il find out :)

also i need suggestions for brookes christmas present.

just fb message your suggestions :) i have a fairly rough idea of what she wants but i need suggestions still :)

i love you brooke.

<3

well im off time to do legal study or hospitality or my english thing.

I'm in love with this girl....

I'm in love with this girl,she doesn't care what people think and sometimes trys to be angry at me but it doesn't work she makes me shiver she makes me get goosebumps she makes my stomach do flips, the way she kisses me makes me feel so good. she makes me feel so god damn good. i respect her for who she is i don't try and undermine her i don't think about other women. no matter how cranky i get with her  i will still say i love you and hold her hand or hug her. i cant live without her and cant go a single day without seeing her pretty smile, she is beautiful in every single way. she is the definition of the word. best of all she is smart. she can easily go far sometimes i think i might bring her from being the best she can be.but then i realise i can make her the best she can. i respect her family and do not wish to cause a fight. one day i will marry this girl i don't have a single doubt although i worry about her constantly she is forever mine. she may flirt with other guys in front of me, this may piss me off, but i don't stop loving her as cranky as i get, as angry as i be with her, i cant stop thinking about her, i know she probably wont do anything to hurt me, but i worry like crazy she will, she has said she wants to get something for me, to remember her if something was to happen or to think of her while she is away and when i cannot hold her. i myself don't want anything, money is materialistic if you have it you have it if not you don't and you may be victimised, i don't have it, she however does. anything she buys me i do not want. but there is no stopping this girl, she loves me and i love her. now she feels terrible for something she done that makes me feel terrible, she shouldn't, sometimes i just overreact. i miss this girl like crazy and would spend every waking moment with her if i could. i love her with all my heart and more. but she doesn't realise how much she means to me. like the kids in Cambodia who were happy with nothing. just us being there meant so much to them, she means more then that to me, she means as much as communism means to communists, she is my everything and without her i wouldn't be around for much longer. with her i am so happy, happier then i have been in a long time, she is the reason behind my pip. true happiness comes from the people around us not the money we make or the unnecessary stuff we buy, with nothing people can be happy with everything one can only fake it. she is my everything and my nothing all in one. ' with nothing your rich, you've got no decisions, no choice and no worry' said by Steven Herrick in his novel the simple gift.  Well I'm in love with this girl, her name you all should know if not i will scream it to the world... "i am in love with Brooke Lorna Kilo!!!!!!"   To The Stars And Back...

the 30 reasons...

no1your cute smile

no2 the way you make me happy

no3 the way you love being a retard

no4 the way i laugh when im happy

no5 the way you kiss me

no6 the fact you can cook for me so im all set when we get married

no7 the way you make everything ok, even when quite clearly its not

no8 the way that your the first guy my best friends have liked

no9 the way you tell me stories of how you used to like me

no10 the way you write me little letters and tell me little stories

no11 how you love me

no12 the way you give me flowers

no13 the way you make me feel

no14 the way your always there for me when i need you

no15 the way you hug me

no16 the way you pretend to crack the shits with me.

no17 the way you make me laugh

no18 the way you mis me and the way i miss you

no19 the way i miss you as soon as you leave

no20 the way you go "broooke do you have any money?"

no21 how you write your blogs

no22 the way you worry about me

no23 how you asked me out

no24 the way you can get me to do anything.

no25 the fact your not ashamed of me

no26 the way you get grumpy at me.

no27 the way you dont care what other people think

no28 the way you chase after me

no29 the way in my bathroom   ...

no30 I JUST LOVE YOU.

these are why my girlfriend loves me..

Brooke Lorna Kilo .. <3

Proud to be Aussie

I am Proud to be Australian.

Today on the walk home from the bus,

i saw an Australian Flag flying high,

in the sun,

and i thought to myself,

WOW should i salute or ?

It made me so proud to be Australian,

Aussie Aussie Aussie.

OI OI OI !!!

On the other hand,

today at work placement,

this guy recommended a you tube video.

look up tourettes karaoke.

And die in hell if you laugh.

Also, i was going to go on about how Brooke does this and that.

but im pretty sure you are all sick of it.

so Brooke knows how much i love her..

Also the simple gift,

a book im reading for English is great and i recommend it to anyone who is willing.

one last thing,

two and a half men is amazing i am watching every single episode,

on the 5th disc of 11 :)


15/10/2010  <3 love you.

"Girl your amazing ,, just the way you are."

Well, today i went to this HSC meeting.

There was this amazing girl there,

she rubbed my neck, and my forearms.

and gave me goosebumps.

this girl not only gives me goose bumps but she makes me smile,

she makes me tingle,

she makes me do stupid things,

she makes me laugh,

she makes me SMILE,

i love this girl with all my heart,

and then some.

i know all my blogs have been about her in some way shape or form.

but thats what blogs are.

stuff that is on your mind,

with me Brooke is always on my mind.

She says she loves me so much it hurts, 

“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.”

. at the start of our love she was afraid that i didnt love her, 

that i would leave her,

well, 

“We say we love flowers, yet we pluck them. We say we love trees, yet we cut them down. And people still wonder why some are afraid when told they are loved.”

i love this girl.

more then the stars and back.

“Just so you know, there's a space that only you can fill. Just so you know, I loved you then, I guess I always will.”

BROOKE LORNA KILO.

I LOVE YOU :) <3

“For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul"

On the other hand though today i started work placement,

made 100 salads,

100 chicken things,

cut 100 tomatoes

and 100 onions,

also cut up salad prep.

quite honestly im sick of prep, but that is part of food i guess.

im thinking i might do an apprenticeship here,

and then work my way through Europe,

as a chef.

anyone like this idea?

anyone got any better ideas?

if so message them to me.

and yes brooke has been included in these plans :)   

I LOVE YOU <3

What to write about...

Thought i may have had a little problem finding something to write about..

then i remembered the amazing weekend i had..

friday night was a little boring.

didnt really do much.

However saturday,

i spent the day with one of the most amazing girls, i know.

BROOKE LORNA KILO.

This girl, i wanted the entire day.

i got there and instantly i was happy. not just happy, ecstatic !!!!

she made me feel so good, the entire night even when she woke me up at 5 am.

it was an amazing night, but now i am so sore !!

my back hurts, my hips hurt, my belly hurts, just everything hurts.

well it was an amazing night but, now i need sleep,

and im hating work !!!

kmart is shit noone ever work for them.

today i found out the managers were betting to see how late i was going to be...

today i found out people who started after me,

are out on the floor when im still stuck on registers with only a 3 hour shift per week.

so if anyone knows a good place where i should try and get a job they should tell me.

cause i am fucking sick of kmart..

i officially hate kmart.

"And the rabbit waits to pounce the unsuspecting tiger."

I have been reading lately,

two very great books,

firstly, the third book in the night angel trilogy, Beyond The Shadows, by Brent Weeks.

Its a really interesting read suspense and drama at every page,

but at around 650 pages per book, 

you have too devote your self,

add the name changes thrown randomly at you,

you really have too pay attention.

Secondly, Watching The Tree, by Adeline Yen Mah.

This book is written by a chinese woman, who was unwanted as a child, and what she held closest to her.

It holds many life lessons taken from ancient chinese proverbs. 

And quotes "that the only constant in life is change"

now over the last couple of days, i have heard this an incredibly lot. 

And i have started to realise how true this is.

In it, it mentions the proverb of Watcing the tree to catch the hare.

Once there was a young boy who was told by a master to catch a hare. He went into the woods and looked around. Lo and behold, at that very moment, he saw a hare running along at full speed. As he watched in astonishment, the hare ran smack into a tree and knocked itself unconscious. All he had to do was too pick it up. For the rest of his life the boy waited behind the same tree in hope that more hares would do the same thing.

Most people are like this and expect the same conditions to always be waiting for them.

Some of the smarter people have learnt that this is true, that it will always change.

I stumbled upon this book, looking for sources to help me with my PIP.

I am learning life lessons from this book.

Now, to what i wanted to say.

I love Brooke Lorn Kilo,

i will never hurt her, EVER !!

(sophie, genna, im not going to get her pregnant...)

You may be trying to reconcile,

you may think it is all just a game,

you may look at it as a competition,

you make think im doing it on purpose.

Technically i am, but on the purpose that i love her.

Not on the purpose of hurting you.

It never was a competition in my eyes.

Just love, love that i have yearned for and finally have,

and will never let go.

I know it hasnt been easy for you. 

But that is the point of the proverb above,

Nothing is constant, except change.

We all grow old,

And learn to live with the mistakes we have made.

But what effects us most,

is not what we, ourselves go through.

But what those around us do.

Brooke sent me a message last night. It made me realise how much i truly do love her.

That girl means the world to me,

she is the most amazing thing to happen in my life.

I couldn't bare to lose her.

I would stand in front of a gun to protect her.

Brooke Lorna Kilo.. 

I Love You,

Im in love with you,

i am even past that.

You are amazing, just the way you are..

To The Stars And Back.

You've got a lot of choices.  If getting out of bed in the morning is a chore and you're not smiling on a regular basis, try another choice.  ~Steven D. Woodhull