I have been reading lately,
two very great books,
firstly, the third book in the night angel trilogy, Beyond The Shadows, by Brent Weeks.
Its a really interesting read suspense and drama at every page,
but at around 650 pages per book,
you have too devote your self,
add the name changes thrown randomly at you,
you really have too pay attention.
Secondly, Watching The Tree, by Adeline Yen Mah.
This book is written by a chinese woman, who was unwanted as a child, and what she held closest to her.
It holds many life lessons taken from ancient chinese proverbs.
And quotes "that the only constant in life is change"
now over the last couple of days, i have heard this an incredibly lot.
And i have started to realise how true this is.
In it, it mentions the proverb of Watcing the tree to catch the hare.
Once there was a young boy who was told by a master to catch a hare. He went into the woods and looked around. Lo and behold, at that very moment, he saw a hare running along at full speed. As he watched in astonishment, the hare ran smack into a tree and knocked itself unconscious. All he had to do was too pick it up. For the rest of his life the boy waited behind the same tree in hope that more hares would do the same thing.
Most people are like this and expect the same conditions to always be waiting for them.
Some of the smarter people have learnt that this is true, that it will always change.
I stumbled upon this book, looking for sources to help me with my PIP.
I am learning life lessons from this book.
Now, to what i wanted to say.
I love Brooke Lorn Kilo,
i will never hurt her, EVER !!
(sophie, genna, im not going to get her pregnant...)
You may be trying to reconcile,
you may think it is all just a game,
you may look at it as a competition,
you make think im doing it on purpose.
Technically i am, but on the purpose that i love her.
Not on the purpose of hurting you.
It never was a competition in my eyes.
Just love, love that i have yearned for and finally have,
and will never let go.
I know it hasnt been easy for you.
But that is the point of the proverb above,
Nothing is constant, except change.
We all grow old,
And learn to live with the mistakes we have made.
But what effects us most,
is not what we, ourselves go through.
But what those around us do.
Brooke sent me a message last night. It made me realise how much i truly do love her.
That girl means the world to me,
she is the most amazing thing to happen in my life.
I couldn't bare to lose her.
I would stand in front of a gun to protect her.
Brooke Lorna Kilo..
I Love You,
Im in love with you,
i am even past that.
You are amazing, just the way you are..
To The Stars And Back.
You've got a lot of choices. If getting out of bed in the morning is a chore and you're not smiling on a regular basis, try another choice. ~Steven D. Woodhull
